Postpartum

I felt: Mentally exhausted, overwhelmed, terrified for what was to come and all at the same time happiness and sense of being complete.

I was: Putting on a brave face - every single god damn day.

I needed: To be reminded that there is no right or wrong.

Postpartum is: An unexplainable journey for every mum.

I felt: overwhelmed

I was: depleted in every aspect

I needed: to let go of my pride and accept more help

Postpartum is: fucking rough and insanely beautiful at the same time

The room fell quiet.

Every last bit of hope was crushed as she announced that our baby had died.

Our world had literally been ripped away.everything.shattered.

I looked at Paul, our eyes filled with horror, stricken with fear and pain.

I felt: so alone

I was: heartbroken

I needed: to talk about it, to know that others had been through it and I wasn’t the only one this had happened to

Pregnancy and infant loss is: having a picture or a dream of what your life is going to be, and then having it ripped away

I felt: overwhelming sadness

I was: in shock

I needed: answers and time to digest

Pregnancy and infant loss is: a different type of pain and grief. It’s like having the most extraordinary gift suddenly taken away.

I felt: Robbed of everything I imagined.

I was: In shock and in love all at once.

I needed: To let go and accept this is my new life.

Postpartum is: A journey.

I felt: Prepared

I was: Not

I needed: Time, space, sleep and help.

Postpartum is: Brightness and darkness all at once!

I felt: overwhelmed, exhausted, happy, proud and scared all at once.

I was: just hanging in there

I needed: to know that I was doing a good job and to understand that this adjustment would take time

Postpartum is: one hell of a ride!